A Stream of Consciousness

What is love? Seriously. I can't remember. Well I think I don't. I've been thinking, what if I've been living my love life (well lack thereof) through other means of conveyance? I mean, a LOT of the movies I've been watching and enjoying have become increasingly more emotionally involved and love oriented. Maybe I'm living all of my dreams and goals through other means of conveyance outside of my own life. A sad thought. Wow this is a weird stream of thoughts. Consider the stream interrupted. Grr. Random guy just came in and for some reason I can't blog whilst someone watchin. Anyway back to business. What is it about humans that draw a man and a woman together? And why has said phenomena passed me while everyone around me is lost in the tide of it?
Gosh this whole idea is stupid. I refuse to let myself become subordinate to someone else. But for some reason the need is there for that to happen. But I have no desire to go and try and make it happen. Well shit. Life is a whole big piece of poop in the backed up toilet that is the universe. So for now, until something happens to convince me otherwise, I don't believe in love and it seems I never will.