Things I'm Going Through

I've been putting myself under a lot of stress as of late. Not sure why. I just need to relax. But relaxing too much is what got me into this pickle. Thing is I've been far too nonchalant with my schoolwork. Skipping classes here and there, letting assignments slide. Big mistake. Now I am freaking out. And the rest of my emotions are suffering for it. I hope that I'll pull through this and achieve the goals I set for myself. I've still got a month plus finals. I'm such an idiot sometimes, most times. Now I play guitar, but I want to stop because this sour mood swing is telling me that "I'm no good and I'll never get any better at it or anything else." I know thats probably not true but gosh it makes a convincing argument. Ive also become nocturnal. Could it be my dreams of becoming a vampire are true? Lets hope. Id be fine with night classes. It's gotten bad enough that I don't care if i go to the ocean or not. Not a good sign. But now that I think about it. I love it so. I miss sitting on the beach at night while the light of the moon dances upon the breaking waves, the odd far-away storm reflecting silent lighting across the endless expanse , the soft breeze caressing my face and the beautiful breaking of the sea calling me back home.
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